Organized Chaos

So I just hired a housekeeper. Mind you I live in a one bedroom apartment. I’m not a neat freak but I’m not a slob either. I know, I know. Such a small living space to hire a cleaning lady, I just really hate cleaning. My place really isn’t that messy or dirty, just clutter here and there and I just don’t clean as much … Continue reading Organized Chaos

Affection

I’ve been single for a very long time now. Dated here and there but no relationship significant enough to have any real affection involved. What is affection? Definition of affection – a gentle feeling of fondness or liking. The only affection I give is to my pets and my family members, other than that, the feeling isn’t there. I’ve been chatting with this one guy … Continue reading Affection

Working out at home with pets

So before COVID-19, I started working out. I tried Barre for a couple of months. I stopped because I wasn’t getting results fast enough. I attempted at Crossfit and boy did I fail! Miserably! I did the 1 week trial just to see if I could 1) Do it, and 2) If I could stick with it. The first night was called Crossfit Training. Keyword: … Continue reading Working out at home with pets

Will I ever get over it?

So the past that I thought many times I had gotten over suddenly found it’s way back to remind me of what happened again… Yesterday, my Whiskey Words and a Shovel calendar said this… I couldn’t stop staring at the words printed on the page. Old feelings rushed through my mind over and over again bringing back the feelings that I thought I had many … Continue reading Will I ever get over it?

Sometimes I forget

Things have been going so well these days. My medication is doing what it’s supposed to be doing. I’m enjoying my life and doing the things that I want to do that I forget that I have this mental illness. The only thing that reminds me of it is when I have to take medication twice a day, other than that, I’m as free as … Continue reading Sometimes I forget

“Nobody Can Save Me”

It’s been three years since I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder and it has been quite a roller coaster ride. Thankfully my doctor has found the right combination of medications to get me stable for about a year now and I am doing great. When Linkin Park released their last album, “One More Light,” there was one particular song in there that hit me hard… … Continue reading “Nobody Can Save Me”

Can you create love out of thin air?

So I’ve been doing the dating scene for quite some time now and I’ve noticed something… Of all the guys I’ve had first and/or second dates with, I don’t know if it’s me or what, but for some reason they seem to fall hard and fast and so when I tell them that it’s not going to work, they are completely devastated and I’ve, and … Continue reading Can you create love out of thin air?