does self care mean self centered?

Before I used to care about everyone but me. All I cared about was your well being. How do you feel? How are you? Are you ok? What is going on in your life? Nevermind about me, I’m fine (regardless of what have been going on in my life good or bad), my number one priority was to take care of you. I was very … Continue reading does self care mean self centered?

I think it’s not over yet…

While things have been good for the past 9 months… my doctor hasn’t changed my meds, I haven’t had any depressive episodes in the past 6 months and everything seems to be okay, I still feel like my depression is hanging around, waiting to release some energy at some point. It’s been too long on the upside of things and it’s time to go back … Continue reading I think it’s not over yet…

in love’s words

If you were to sum yourself up in words of love, what would it say? I have a calendar on my desk that was given to me, “Whiskey words & a shovel,” that gives short sayings, if I am describing that correctly. Quotes maybe? Anyway today’s was this: just stay.I’m just a fucked-up loversearching for someone whowill understand my scarsand never leave my side I … Continue reading in love’s words

It was all a SCAM!!!

So I’m still doing this whole online dating thing. Obviously nothing good has come about since I’m constantly writing about my odd situations I get myself into. Well here is one for you… About two or three weeks ago, I got a message from someone and he was cute and all. We started talking and he was sweet and we were actually having a conversation … Continue reading It was all a SCAM!!!

I passed my 6 month mark

It’s been 8 or 9 months now, I think, and my medication hasn’t failed on me. YAY! Before I couldn’t get past 6 months without my doctor having to change my meds and I would go into this period of depression every time. I didn’t even notice it until my last doctor appointment. I had to look up when my doctor originally prescribed the last … Continue reading I passed my 6 month mark

I didn’t think it was possible…

I have this friend who was going through deep depression the same time I was. We would sulk in our misery together. Somehow our level of depression seemed to always be the same every time we saw each other. When we were at our lowest point, I remember us saying how we didn’t remember what it felt like to be happy. That we haven’t smiled … Continue reading I didn’t think it was possible…

Wish me luck! “Wink”

So the last time I said anything about relationships, I said I didn’t want to be in one and I just wanted a companion and leave everything up to the universe. Well that lasted for a good few months. I sit here and I think, if I really leave it up to the universe and fate or destiny, nothing will ever happen because I never … Continue reading Wish me luck! “Wink”