I’ve had this health condition that I’ve been living with for 20+ years now, costochondritis, or so I thought. Technically it should have gone away a long time ago but it hasn’t. It feels like someone stabbing you with a knife through the chest and twisting it over and over again. Normally it would pop up out of nowhere for like a day or two … Continue reading being sick all the time
My mom and I go on dates maybe once a month and we’ve been doing this since my real parents divorced. I’m always the stand in when she doesn’t have a significant other to cling on to. At some point after she and my stepdad divorced, she started dating. Since I’ve been in the dating scene for quite some time now, she turns to me … Continue reading My mom’s boyfriend
During my early 20’s and even early 30’s I was still skinny and weighed about 130 pounds. I fit into everything nicely and I wasn’t as conscious about my body as I am now. I still cared about what I wore, nice, classy, dressed appropriately to whatever occasion I went to. When I started taking meds in 2016, one of the side effects of nearly … Continue reading Self Image
I love living alone. I love my freedom, my space, my independence but sometimes I wish I lived with someone. Not necessarily a significant other, maybe just a roommate or something like that to help with the day to day responsibilities? Or what if they have something like hire a caregiver on the spot just for a day or two or as long as needed? … Continue reading sometimes I just need a break
I forgot my morning meds at home so I had to leave work to go get them. I don’t know if it is the thought of missing the dose or not taking them on time that throws me off, but it definitely did its damage. I felt like I was crying all day yesterday and I feel that way today too. The only good thing … Continue reading I didn’t take my meds on time
Are you okay? I get asked that question a lot, throughout the day, everyday. It really gets exhausting having to always answer “yes, I’m okay.” I get that there are those people who are positive or happy people all the time but I’m not one of them. I’m not saying I’m a sad person, I just don’t show that much emotion throughout the day and … Continue reading are you okay?
Sometimes I wonder how severe my mental illness is but who is to say except my psychiatrist. In the beginning, things were bad, I mean really bad. I really don’t know how I got through those days. How I was able to live on my own, keep my job and have pets to take care of and at the same time, no one in my … Continue reading high-functioning
I have been though countless episodes since I’ve been diagnosed and in the end, I just move on with life as if nothing happened. I don’t think I’ve ever really analyzed an episode after it had happened. Is it better that I don’t? or should I have sat down and talked about it? I don’t think it matters now, does it? It’s okay, I had … Continue reading as if nothing happened
Separate, sifting through the wreckageI can’t concentrateSearching for a message In the fear and painBroken down and waitingFor the chance to feel alive Now in my remainsAre promises that never cameSet the silence freeTo wash away the worst of me Come apartFalling in the cracksOf every broken heartDigging through the wreckage Of your disregardSinking down and waitingFor the chance to feel alive Now in my … Continue reading In my remains by Linkin Park
This is a late post because I’ve been busy with work. I’ve been really good about bringing my lunch to work and not eating out, that goes for dinner too. So one day I decided to get In-N-Out for dinner on a Friday evening. Hey, I deserve it right? So I got a double double with grilled onions, extra crispy fries and a coke. Took … Continue reading always take your psych meds!
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