I feel so outdated. The technology world has left me in the dust. Unfortunately my line of work isn’t exactly in the technology realm. I have an office job and one of my duties is minor IT work. I mean I only install printer software and do minor network fixes but that’s it, after that, I have to call the real IT guys and have … Continue reading Outdated
I’ve been single for a very long time now. Dated here and there but no relationship significant enough to have any real affection involved. What is affection? Definition of affection – a gentle feeling of fondness or liking. The only affection I give is to my pets and my family members, other than that, the feeling isn’t there. I’ve been chatting with this one guy … Continue reading Affection
So before COVID-19, I started working out. I tried Barre for a couple of months. I stopped because I wasn’t getting results fast enough. I attempted at Crossfit and boy did I fail! Miserably! I did the 1 week trial just to see if I could 1) Do it, and 2) If I could stick with it. The first night was called Crossfit Training. Keyword: … Continue reading Working out at home with pets
So I’m turning into a girly girl… I don’t know what’s happening but lately certain things have been changing. I’m all of a sudden wearing more girly clothes, looking nice and not just throwing on any jeans and t-shirt or hoodie I can find in my closet. I actually stand in front of my closet every night picking out what I am going to wear … Continue reading girly girl
So the past that I thought many times I had gotten over suddenly found it’s way back to remind me of what happened again… Yesterday, my Whiskey Words and a Shovel calendar said this… I couldn’t stop staring at the words printed on the page. Old feelings rushed through my mind over and over again bringing back the feelings that I thought I had many … Continue reading Will I ever get over it?
Things have been going so well these days. My medication is doing what it’s supposed to be doing. I’m enjoying my life and doing the things that I want to do that I forget that I have this mental illness. The only thing that reminds me of it is when I have to take medication twice a day, other than that, I’m as free as … Continue reading Sometimes I forget
It’s been three years since I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder and it has been quite a roller coaster ride. Thankfully my doctor has found the right combination of medications to get me stable for about a year now and I am doing great. When Linkin Park released their last album, “One More Light,” there was one particular song in there that hit me hard… … Continue reading “Nobody Can Save Me”
So I’ve been doing the dating scene for quite some time now and I’ve noticed something… Of all the guys I’ve had first and/or second dates with, I don’t know if it’s me or what, but for some reason they seem to fall hard and fast and so when I tell them that it’s not going to work, they are completely devastated and I’ve, and … Continue reading Can you create love out of thin air?
So last Friday, I had dinner with my dad… Okay, I’m not trying to put my dad in a bad light or anything, but it just seems like every time he invites me to dinner, he has an agenda. Anyway, at the end of dinner he asks me, “Carr, can you help me refinance my house?” I didn’t even give it any thought, not one … Continue reading house hunting
So the last time I said anything about relationships, I said I didn’t want to be in one and I just wanted a companion and leave everything up to the universe. Well that lasted for a good few months. I sit here and I think, if I really leave it up to the universe and fate or destiny, nothing will ever happen because I never … Continue reading Wish me luck! “Wink”