Sometimes I forget

Things have been going so well these days. My medication is doing what it’s supposed to be doing. I’m enjoying my life and doing the things that I want to do that I forget that I have this mental illness. The only thing that reminds me of it is when I have to take medication twice a day, other than that, I’m as free as a bird.

Every now and then I get articles from NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) about other people struggling with their mental illness and it’s a good reminder of where I came from and what I used to struggle with. I like reading the articles because it makes me feel like I’m not alone in this. There are so many people out there struggling with mental illness and everyone has their own story to tell.

It’s hard to imagine what my life was like back then without the help of my doctors, therapist and medication. I can’t even begin to think what it would be like to fall back into that state of mind. I have journals that were filled with pages during those times and I don’t dare to read them ever again. I’m afraid it will bring me back down to what I used to be like and I don’t want to go back to that place. I guess I keep them as a reminder of where I came from.

All I can say is that life is beautiful! Before the medication started to work, I used to have major events to mark the days that I would have to live, now I live each day to look forward to the next. My life is not ending anytime soon, as I once used to say, I have so much more to look forward to, so much more to live for that sometimes I forget that I have a mental illness that I have to deal with. But that’s the point isn’t it? To be able to cope and live with the mental illness and not let it disrupt my everyday life. Not let it bring me down. That I can beat this thing and I have! So forgetting about it is a good thing!

So if I can do this, so can you!

If you are struggling with something, whatever it may be, mental illness or not, or you just want someone to talk to, just send me a message. I would love to make new friends or just simply be there for someone.


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