finding and taking care of yourself

Growing up is the time when you try to figure your self out, but there is so much change going on in your life that you can’t exactly know who you are yet. There are those who are lucky enough to know themselves by the time they reach college. When you get to that time of being in relationships, you tend to gravitate to the … Continue reading finding and taking care of yourself

Going backwards

I feel like I have to re-examine myself as to what happened in the past, while I was trying to figure out how to deal with my mental illness, why things are the way they are now. I keep wondering if I should go back and read through my journals that I told myself I would never open again. Afraid that it might be a … Continue reading Going backwards

I wish my love life was a Filipino love story

I’ve been stuck at home recovering from surgery for about a few weeks now and I have run out of things to watch. I was surfing through Amazon Prime movies for something to watch and a Filipino movie came up. Filipino movies are mushy, corny love stories where one is fighting for the other to make the relationship work and they are definitely tear jerkers. … Continue reading I wish my love life was a Filipino love story

Phases of life

Being in recovery mode for the past few weeks and have nothing to do but binge watch TV show and think endlessly about everything. The one thing that has been running around in my mind is that certain people become a part of your life and then at some point that comes to an end. When I was little, I grew up with my cousins. … Continue reading Phases of life

Strawberries and Granola

I just started back on keto on Monday. So far it’s been okay. Today I only had a small turkey burger for lunch and I was still hungry. I decided to go down the street to where my company usually gets our luncheon sandwiches from and get one for myself. When I got down there, the line was obscenely long, I would have never made … Continue reading Strawberries and Granola

how do you speak when you can’t speak?

All this time, I’ve been dealing with my mental illness on my own, maybe with the help of my best friend and sometimes a therapist, but mainly on my own. I just went through another major depressive episode and it lasted for over a month and resulted in changes on my medication. I talk about it with certain people and I always get the same … Continue reading how do you speak when you can’t speak?

Affection

I’ve been single for a very long time now. Dated here and there but no relationship significant enough to have any real affection involved. What is affection? Definition of affection – a gentle feeling of fondness or liking. The only affection I give is to my pets and my family members, other than that, the feeling isn’t there. I’ve been chatting with this one guy … Continue reading Affection

“Nobody Can Save Me”

It’s been three years since I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder and it has been quite a roller coaster ride. Thankfully my doctor has found the right combination of medications to get me stable for about a year now and I am doing great. When Linkin Park released their last album, “One More Light,” there was one particular song in there that hit me hard… … Continue reading “Nobody Can Save Me”