I was having dinner with an old co-worker, more like a really good friend, and we were catching up over dinner the other night. I pretty much told her everything that has happened/is happening with me since we last saw each other a few months ago. At the end of the night, she asked me, “Are you angry with God?”
With everything that I have been through and continue to go through and because of my faith in God, I clearly and gladly said “No” and I smiled. If anything, God really has been my glimmer of hope. It has never failed that God clearly is watching over me and listens to and answers my prayers. It is through these really rough and trying times that I truly see God’s love for me. I know that God has not and will not give me anything that I can’t handle and if I feel like I can’t do it anymore, he will give me a way out!
1 Corinthians 10:13 – 13 No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
And when I begin to stray away… something I wrote not too long ago… It is so easy for us to drift away from God and we don’t notice it. Then at least for me, I get to the point of “oh, i’m in a weird phase going through things” excuse. Almost as if I come back only when a message or something happens that I feel God tugging on my heart or sometimes even knocking really hard on my head if I’m being stubborn. And yet I continue to pray and question how many times will God take me back and forgive me this time around. But this is where I see God really work on me showing me that he truly cares and loves me. It is sad that it takes a dramatic event for me to notice him sometimes. I do miss the times that I just noticed that everything was being done by God and if it wasn’t for him, things would be a lot different.
Hebrews 2:1-4 – 1 We must pay the most careful attention, therefore, to what we have heard, so that we do not drift away. 2 For since the message spoken through angels was binding, and every violation and disobedience received its just punishment, 3 how shall we escape if we ignore so great a salvation? This salvation, which was first announced by the Lord, was confirmed to us by those who heard him. 4 God also testified to it by signs, wonders and various miracles, and by gifts of the Holy Spirit distributed according to his will.
It is in God that I hang on to more than just a glimmer of hope. It is through my faith that I know God will be there to protect me. It is through His trust in me and my trust in Him that gives me strength to keep pushing through. And with that said, I end with this…
Jeremiah 29: 11-13 – 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.