In all my past relationships, I was always the one to like the other person more than they liked me. I was always the one making the plans to go somewhere or do something. I was always the one looking forward to the next time I saw them. In all those years, not once did I ever feel wanted or needed. In all my relationships, … Continue reading Wanted
Dear ____________, You were the love of my life. I don’t think I can ever love someone again the way that I loved you. Everything about our relationship was everything I had ever imagined I would have in a relationship. You took care of me. You truly cared for me, I think, but you really did take care of me. The things you did for … Continue reading Closure
I’ve been stuck at home recovering from surgery for about a few weeks now and I have run out of things to watch. I was surfing through Amazon Prime movies for something to watch and a Filipino movie came up. Filipino movies are mushy, corny love stories where one is fighting for the other to make the relationship work and they are definitely tear jerkers. … Continue reading I wish my love life was a Filipino love story
Valentines weekend, I was sitting on my couch Sunday evening and I get a call or text from my dad saying that my grandma was in the hospital and she had a stroke. Shortly after, I got a call from my sister saying she was on her way to the hospital and that my grandma didn’t have a lot of time left. I jumped off … Continue reading I Love you Lola
Things have been going so well for me. Life is good. Work is good. Family is good. I really couldn’t ask for anything more. Even with COVID going on all around us, I’m one of the lucky ones who can say that everything is really going okay. Probably even better than okay. So why is it that when I finally get to this point in … Continue reading Self Love
I’ve been single for a very long time now. Dated here and there but no relationship significant enough to have any real affection involved. What is affection? Definition of affection – a gentle feeling of fondness or liking. The only affection I give is to my pets and my family members, other than that, the feeling isn’t there. I’ve been chatting with this one guy … Continue reading Affection
So I’ve been doing the dating scene for quite some time now and I’ve noticed something… Of all the guys I’ve had first and/or second dates with, I don’t know if it’s me or what, but for some reason they seem to fall hard and fast and so when I tell them that it’s not going to work, they are completely devastated and I’ve, and … Continue reading Can you create love out of thin air?
If you were to sum yourself up in words of love, what would it say? I have a calendar on my desk that was given to me, “Whiskey words & a shovel,” that gives short sayings, if I am describing that correctly. Quotes maybe? Anyway today’s was this: just stay.I’m just a fucked-up loversearching for someone whowill understand my scarsand never leave my side I … Continue reading in love’s words
So I’ve gone on a handful of first dates and none have gotten past that. I’ve never really had to think what if things did work out and there was a second or third date? Except once. Where would that lead to? What would happen? I went on a date with a guy a couple of weeks ago and he really really liked me. To … Continue reading Afraid to love again
What I want is the stuff made out of fairy tales, it could only happen in movies, this kind of stuff doesn’t happen in the real world… Hence my hopeless romantic side… I went on a couple of dates with this one guy. He drove all the way from Riverside twice to go on a date with me… these days, in the dating world, that … Continue reading hopeless romantic part 2
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